Monday, July 14, 2014

The Baby is a....


So the reveal didn't quite go as planned.  We were so afraid that everything would fall out of  the box too early we unwittingly made it too hard to actually open.  Oops!  Oh well.  

I had a big empty box in the attic that we covered in wrapping paper and then just got some stick letter to put on the front.  Inside we put 4 packets of confetti, balloons and taped streamers inside.  We had to get some rope and poke holes in the flaps so, theoretically, the kids could pull on them and the box would open over them spilling it's contents.  Then I just put more wrapping paper over the flaps( the bottom).  We made holes in the top of the box on either side after we wrapped it and hooked a bungee cord there.  Then we just strung a rope through that and hoisted it over a tree branch.

The rest I kept simple.  Got some gender reveal stuff at Walmart-table cloth, napkins, and stickers for voting boy or girl.

 I grabbed some little sheer goody bags in blue and pink and threw in some blue and pink gumballs with pearly white sixlets( chocolate) and then grabbed the cupcake centerpiece too.  I did not have time to make my own cupcakes so I bought them and tweaked them.  I bought chocolate 'Frozen" theme cupcakes in blue and took off the characters on top and replaced them with little onesie sugar decoration with pink and blue hearts in the middle.  Then the white cupcakes I had to take off the toppers and I had a little can of pink airbrush coloring at home( edible of course!) that I sprayed on them and put the onesies on those too.  That's it.  Simple( which means less hassle for me!)

Only 1 person thought it was a girl and that was my BIL.  He asked,"What's the heart rate?"  I said 150's and with out pause he said "GIRL!"  


The funny thing is though that at 8 weeks 5 days and 9 weeks 3 days the heart rate was 176 and 171 which indicates boy.  Then the last couple times it has been in the 150's.  

We are totally shocked that it' a girl. We were so convinced it was a boy and to be honest I am still not a 100% convinced.  I am fine with a girl though, but a boy would have been nice because I haven't had one in 9 years. 

We are blessed either way!

Many Blessings,
The Mama

Friday, July 11, 2014

16 Years Ago...

16 years ago I married the love of my life. 

Not trying to be narcissistic here but all my other wedding day photos are up in the attic right now and I can't get up there because Little Miss is sleeping.  I had to steal this one from my mom's FB page.
I will get one down of both the Hubby and I and post it later!

 It hasn't always been an easy road, but it's been worth every bump and twist in the road.  We could have called it quits many times but were determined to stick it out and work through it.  We took the D word out of our vocabulary( divorce) and replaced it with the C word( commitment).

Anything worth having is worth fighting for and it makes it all that much sweeter and worth even more to us.

We had a lovely dinner tonight with the best food I have ever had.  Our family pulled together to make it happen for us since we had 2 children who had to be at 2 different events at the same time.  Thanks guys!!!

We got to get all dressed up and just enjoyed one another's company with no time limits( or interruptions!).  

18 weeks today!

I also got my U/S today and we are doing a fun way to announce the baby's gender  to our family tomorrow.  I will be sure to take pics and announce on here too! Probably on Sunday or Monday since we have another full day tomorrow.  You can sign up to get my blog posts sent via email if you would like.  Just put your email address in at the right of the page where it says subscribe.  I know how crushing it is to miss one of my posts ;)

Many Blessings,
The Mama

Thursday, June 19, 2014

A Birthday and A Journey with Princess

When we 1st saw Princess on the Special Home Find list she was 6 years old.  Now she has turned 11!

(Photo stolen from my mom- thanks mom!)

 She will be a teen in 2 years.  YIKES!

I came across an update on a story that was back from 2009 about an extremely neglected girl in the U.S. who was eventually rescued and adopted.  It was featured on Oprah.  I never saw the original show or ever heard the story. Till now.

If you want to know our story then watch click   HERE   and watch the video.  

THEIR story is OUR story. 

 I was blown away.  I have never ever run into a child that has been so similar to Princess nor a family who we could so closely identify with.

Was this girl born with some of the issues? Possibly.  Was some of it caused by her severe neglect?  Absolutely.  The affects of such neglect on the developing brain of a child is extremely profound.

 ( read The Boy Who was Raised as a Dog for more info on this.  Also Parenting the Hurt Child is excellent)

Praise God the food issues for Princess have subsided tremendously compared to this family.  It has to do with trust.  She trusts that we will feed her.  That trust was not always there and for good reason given her past( for those that don't know, Princess weighed just 12 lbs at the age of 3).

The girl in the video was older than when Princess was rescued so the girl had more years of the psychological impact of not having enough to eat. It is no wonder she has not healed yet from it and likely ever will.

But we still have food issues and Princess will still eat till she throws up if we don't keep a close eye on her.  If Princess is feeling insecure and that things are out of her control she will have food meltdowns.  It's kind of panic mode.  Food=Love to her.  I know people say this( the way to my heart is through my stomach) but you have no idea the very realness of that statement for our daughter and those that have experienced near starvation like her.

I wanted to scream,"YES! YES! YES!"  at the point in the video where the dad talks about his daughter's progression and what others might think.  My goals for Princess are EXACTLY the same as he states for his daughter.  I hate when people belittle Princess's progress because it's not what they think she should be doing.  I am offended for my daughter and the long way she has come in her journey.

Seriously, though, just sub out our faces in the video and you wouldn't even have to edit any of the dialogue or interviews.  It is OUR story.

I hope it can give you a glimpse into our world with Princess.

Many Blessings,
The Mama 

Tuesday, June 10, 2014

Ultrasound Results

The Baby is Fine!!

In case you are ultrasound challenged:

  That's the baby's face profile and arm and hand. 
You can see some of it's leg and foot at the bottom.

Isn't that the cutest little nose??

Many Blessings,
The Mama

No Heartbeat

I had an OB appt yesterday.  I was 13 weeks 3 days.  I have been feeling good, the sickness is almost gone but I am just completely exhausted now.

But the Dr couldn't find the baby's heartbeat. He tried for quite awhile to no avail.  So he set up a Hold and Call U/S.  Which is that after the U/S I stay there till the results are in and they phone the Dr.  I suppose if it was bad news the Dr might come in or I would go see him even.

My appt was at 2:20 and at 3pm the receptionist was calling over to schedule the U/S which ended up not being able to be done till 4:45.

I really wasn't nervous at this point.  I was more excited to get another U/S.  I had had no signs of miscarriage.  Although, I am aware that sometimes a miscarriage will start happen after an U/S confirms that the baby died.  So didn't feel totally out of the woods, but fairly confident.

So we arrive for my U/S at 4:45 and were told that the U/S tech called 20 minutes ago to say that there had been an accident and she had gotten tied up in but was about 30 minutes away.

More waiting.  

Time is not my friend.  The more I have time to think about things, the more worked up I get.  So I was feeling much more nervous at this point and just wanted to know-kind of.

Plus my bladder was screaming to use the bathroom from the massive amounts of water they make you drink before an U/S.

At 5:30 the receptionist comes over to say the tech called in and was still sitting in traffic with no signs of it moving.

We could either just wait till the tech eventually showed up, which could be hours given the info that was coming in on the accident( sounded like a pile up) or we could reschedule for tomorrow morning( today).

Neither choice sounded good.

We were also told that the 2 other U/S techs had been contacted to come in but they were "in a meeting" apparently learning a new system.

Ok, the U/S tech stuck in traffic can't help that.  But 2 other techs were simply in a meeting and neither could come to tell me if my child was alive or not?!!  This really irritated me. It was clear by my orders from the Dr. with it being a hold and call that this was important.  And it said on my papers it was for an absent fetal heartbeat.

And then the receptionist says that morning is pretty full we will have to do it later.

Seriously?  There is no one that can be bumped so I can get in sooner since I already have to wait overnight?

I found it so uncaring and callous.  And don't worry, I will be letting the hospital know of my experience.

So we made the appt for 1pm and left.   Which they ended up calling and changing to 12pm anyhow.  I am glad it is earlier, but I don't think it had anything to do with helping me.  It has to do with helping them with their schedule.

So, today at 12 I will have my U/S.

We went to an awesome talent show last night that a friend of ours was in.  It was all Christian music and it did my worried soul good.  By time it was over I was at peace.

I am still feeling good this morning and while there is a tinge of "what if" in my head, I am more excited to see the baby and maybe, just maybe, find out the gender =)

I would still love prayers because it never hurts.  I will be sure to update when we get home today.

Many Blessings,
The Mama

Tuesday, May 27, 2014

The Stealing of Joy...

I have felt off kilter lately, or rather that my life is off kilter.  I feel in limbo.  It could all be hormones or compounded by being sick, but whatever it is I don't like it.  I feel like I don't know which way is up.  The Lord has given me the power of discernment. I FEEL things.  What most would call their gut maybe.  I can 'read' people really well.  So my issue is that I have not felt God lately.  Since the beginning of April really.  My joy has for some reason been stolen for our trip across the county.  And I don't like it one bit.

It has been a very difficult, nearly 2 months of feeling this way.  I cried out once again this morning for God to restore my joy and at once I came across this blog post.  It sums my feelings up perfectly and what I have been going through.

The Touch of Jesus

Many Blessings,
The Mama

Friday, May 23, 2014

11 Weeks Bump, U/S pics, Bdays, Easter, etc

Been pretty quiet on here, sorry.  Just been busy and not feeling well.  
But, praise God, I am finally starting to feel better!  Woo-hoo!  

We've had 1 showing since last we chatted. They liked the house but the layout didn't work for their needs.

Snuggle Bug turned 9 last week!  

Here he is getting a metal detector that he is clearly very excited about. 

 Sissy made her own Easter dress this year.  She designed it, picked out the material and paid for everything herself.  And because she is so stinking skinny we had no pattern to go by!  So we winged it.

 Bubba started baseball.  We will be having 3 games a week soon( including Saturdays-ugh). 
 It is certainly a commitment but I enjoy watching him play.  

 Here is our family pic from Easter Sunday

And here is my 11 week pregnancy pic. I took it this morning.

Getting thick around the middle.  Can't wait till I officially have a baby bump and don't just look chunky.

Here is my 11 week pic from Little Miss 

I also got an U/S a couple week ago to be sure of dates.  The Dr. thought I may be farther along than originally thought, but no luck.  lol

But we got to see the little jelly bean( well he/she is the size of a lime now).  

To the right is his/her head.  You can see the little arms and legs too sticking out. I was 9 weeks 3 days.

Here the head is to the left.  And it had it's little arms up under it's chin and it's legs curled up.  
We could see him/her moving it's arms around. 

Tomorrow is Little Misses 2nd Bday! 

Just a small little party with our immediate family and G'ma and then a celebration on Sunday with the Hubby's parents and siblings at their house.  Very low key.  I have learned that parties shouldn't be stressful.  It takes the fun out of them.  Sometimes simple is best.

I pray you all have a fun and safe holiday weekend!

Many Blessings,
The Mama